Mimis struggle – Chapter Eleven
Of course Mimi and Ally were on time for school – they were never late, despite the constant rhetoric that Mimi endured on a daily basis. She knew it was all just a giant conspiracy between her mother and Ally just to annoy her, like everything else in Mimi’s life. There was no other explanation for it. Ally would always wait for her, without fail, before going to school, complaining about how Mimi needing a diaper change meant they never left on time. Yet, as soon as they set off the two of them would barely walk near each other, let alone talk. If she was so worried about being late then there was nothing stopping her from leaving on her own, but Mimi had gotten tired of saying that a long time ago. And heaven forbid Mimi should ever complain about being late! Each time she did it was greeted with a “nonsense, there’s plenty of time to take forever embarrassing you with your pull-ups”, or something close to that effect. Not anymore though, Mimi sadly thought to herself, there wasn’t going to be any more pull-up routine for her in the near future.
Mimi’s self conscious nature was running on overload as she crept along the school corridors. She hadn’t thought it would be so bad, but she guessed that no amount of diaper wearing around her family could prepare her for social situations. Sure she’d been diapered in public before, but school was a different scenario – her relationship with her peers could make or break her daily life, and anything she did wasn’t likely to go unnoticed like it had at the mall. Mimi felt very alone and vulnerable; she wished that her mom were there holding her hand.
Mimi didn’t like bringing attention to herself on a normal day, but today she hung her head low even more and clutched her books close to her chest, hoping not to have to interact with anyone until she felt more comfortable. Most people would probably ignore her; she was just the shy nerdy girl, but her friends were likely to at least say hi, and there was always the chance that a popular girl might decide to start bullying her. It didn’t really happen at her school she knew, but if it ever did then she also knew that she would be an obvious target. Lastly, and most feared of all, there was always the incident that plagued girls just like Mimi the world over: the inevitable crash into the cutest guy in the school, spilling her books everywhere and knocking her to the floor. Even though it was an obvious cliché from teen movies, it had actually happened to Mimi more than once before.
The terrified teen eventually made it to her first class without incident, which wasn’t a lot to ask on her first day back in diapers she thought. There would be plenty of time for hilarious mishaps over the coming semester. At least she wouldn’t have to worry about leaks so much.
As the day went on, moving around the school started to seem like less of an issue. Between periods there was so much hustle and bustle that no one was likely to notice anything, even if they bumped right into her, and the give away crinkling noise was easily drowned out. In class was a little bit trickier. If it was particularly quiet, Mimi could hear herself rustling every time she shifted in her seat, though no one else seemed to care. She rationalised that it was just one of those things you would never notice unless you were looking for it, and she just had to get over her paranoia. She did fear having to stand and move anywhere during class though, because then all eyes would be on her. Fortunately, very few teachers ever made students get up unless they volunteered, and no one was going to pick on the shy girl.
However, being suddenly reluctant to even breath too loudly in class was causing Mimi some unforeseen problems. She had not been looking forward to having to change her diaper at school, and had decided beforehand that the best time would be during lessons. If she asked to use the bathroom right in the middle of a period then no one else would be in there, allowing her the privacy she needed. However, that was becoming less and less of a possibility as she realized just how much attention that would bring to her, especially if the teacher made a big deal out of it. That only left her with two options: to change during lunch or to abandon her plan altogether. The latter was not even up for consideration; she had come too far to quit now. If gave up then she’d likely never get out of diapers at school. Mimi was too far committed.
Despite spending most of the morning worrying, when lunch time finally came around Mimi was presented with a third, more favorable option. She had only wet once during the first half of the day and didn’t feel a great need to go again. Usually this would still necessitate a quick pull-up change but now that she was in diapers, it meant she had more time to work with. If she could make the same diaper last all day, she wouldn’t have to change at all and could wait until she got home. That was a much better idea, even if it did mean spending lunch with her friends in a wet diaper.
What difference would it make? Being in a wet as opposed to a dry diaper had just as many merits and flaws. From vast experience she knew that being wet made her diaper bulge slightly more and sag a little lower, increasing the chances of being seen. Obviously it made her more likely to leak too, though she doubted she was nearly wet enough to worry about that. On the other hand, wet diapers crinkled a lot less than fresh dry ones, so it was pretty much an even playing field.
As it turned out, no one at lunch so much as batted an eyelid. It was like any other lunchtime with her friends, which still meant she barely said anything. Mimi was definitely the quiet one of the group.
“Awww damn it. We’ve got physics next with Mr. Donovan haven’t we Mimi?” Cat announced as the bell rang, ushering them to class.
“Uh-huh.” Mimi replied. She actually liked physics, but would never admit it to her friend. Unlike most students, she also liked being on her own in classes; having her friends around only made her feel more self conscious. However, she was aware that not everyone was as pathetic as she was, so Mimi happily let Cat sit next to her in any classes they had together, which wasn’t that many.
“This is so boring!” Cat whispered as she turned the page in her text book, only to find it laden with as many numbers and diagrams as the previous one. Mimi wasn’t listening.
“I mean, I know physics is totally math stuff, but couldn’t they jazz it up a bit?”Cat often made such suggestions when complaining about subjects she didn’t like, which always invoked the same “I’m sure they’d love to hear your ideas.” response from Mimi, before she reluctantly let Cat copy her answers. But today Mimi didn’t say anything; she wouldn’t even look at her friend.
“Hey Mimi, are you o.k?” she asked with a little concern having seen the pained expression on Mimi’s face. “You don’t look so good.”
Mimi didn’t feel so good. Having decided only minutes before to not change at lunch so that she could keep the same diaper on all day, she was now struggling to stop herself from wetting her diaper for the second time. She was putting all of her effort into not letting go but she knew it wouldn’t last. She also knew that when it happened, she wouldn’t be able to wait until she got home for a change or she would almost certainly leak. Great plan stupid! She reprimanded herself. Now how am I gonna change?
Sure enough, moments later she was unwillingly wetting her diaper. Whilst being slightly proud that she had tried so hard to hold on, she was still more than a little annoyed at the poor timing of it. At least she could concentrate on the class again.
“Hello? Earth to Mimi. What’s gotten into you?”
“What are you talking about?” she said, knowing exactly what Cat was talking about.
“You totally spaced out for like five minutes! Are you feeling o.k?”
“Oh sorry, I was having a bit of a migraine… I’m fine.”
“I was starting to get scared. Maybe you should go to the nurse?”
“No!” Mimi exclaimed, a little too loudly for a physics class atmosphere. The mention of the school nurse while she was soaked brought up too many diabolical possibilities.
“Chill out weirdo, I just meant you could get out of the rest of class.”
“Kitty, you’re such a drop out.”
“And proud of it. Cant believe you’d let a good headache go to waste…”
The rest of physics went as well as could be expected; Mimi forgot about her diaper and Cat kept complaining, allowing them both to get as much work done as they usually did. By the time the bell rang though, Mimi was already packed up and ready to go. She had been waiting for it.
“I need to use the bathroom before next class, I’ll see you later o.k?” she said with her bag already on her shoulder. She had settled on a fourth and rather unreliable option; to change between classes. It would surely make her late to next period but hopefully not enough to attract too much attention as she walked in. It wasn’t like she had a choice – the end of the day was a long way off.
“Hey wait up Mimi, I’ll come with you.”Cat chimed.
“No, don’t…” Mimi said automatically. She’d been caught completely off guard, “I mean, er… you take ages to pack away so I’ll see you in there alright?”
Quick thinking, Mimi thought to herself as she dashed straight past the nearest bathroom, the one that Cat would surely go to thinking she was in there. It wouldn’t matter if she was a tiny bit late to next period, so Mimi was in no rush as she slipped into the girls bathroom on the next floor.
A few other girls were milling about when Mimi entered, some fixing hair or make-up and others doing what Mimi claimed to be doing but hadn’t done in a long time – actually using the bathroom. No one noticed her shuffle into a bathroom stall and none of them would notice when she didn’t come out before they left. Then she would have private time.
Finally, Mimi heard the door close for what she figured to be the last time. She hadn’t had to wait too long for everyone else to leave, so she waited another few seconds for good measure. Nothing but silence, at last she was alone. Class was about to start so no one else would be coming in any time soon, but even so Mimi didn’t want to be reckless on her first day so she took things very slowly, trying to make as little noise as possible. First she took a new diaper and everything else she would need from her bag and placed it on the small ledge in the cubicle. Trying to slide a diaper from her bag without it rustling was tricky, but she allowed herself some leeway as there was clearly no one else in the room.
Sitting down on the toilet seat, Mimi began to undo the tapes on her diaper one at a time, trying not to make the tell-tale ripping sound that diaper tapes are famous for. She had already taken a long time, and could probably have completed the whole diaper change by now if she hadn’t been trying to be careful, but she figured it was better safe than sorry. When the last tape was undone, Mimi lowered the front of her diaper away and prepared to stand up.
Suddenly, she heard the bathroom door open. Mimi froze, not wanting to make a sound. Great! She thought, now I’ll have to wait even longer.
“Mimi? You in here?” a familiar voice called out.
Damn it all, Cat was too good a friend and so had come looking for her. Mimi remained frozen in silence, hoping that Cat would give up and go try another bathroom. However, Cat noticed the looked cubicle door and wasn’t about to give up yet. Her best friend had been acting a little weird after all, maybe something was wrong.
“Mimi, is that you in the stall?” She called from a distance, not wanting to get too close in case it wasn’t her at all. Mimi still did nothing, but was starting to wonder just how far Cat was willing to go if she was convinced Mimi was in there. The longer she remained silent, the more suspicious she would look if Cat eventually found out it was her.
“Mimi, if you’re in here I just want to know that you’re o.k, that’s all.” Her voice sounded at lot closer now. Mimi cracked.
“I’m fine.” she said eventually.
“Oh thank God, I thought I was talking to a complete randomer!” Mimi heard the neighboring stall door open and close as Cat went in. “What’s up Mimi, are you o.k?” she said from the other side of the wall.
“Yes, I’m o.k. Cant I get some privacy?”
“Well sorry, you were just acting weird is all, and then you went and hid from me.” Mimi felt a ping of guilt at having tried to trick her friend.
“Yeah, sorry about that… It’s um, you-know-what.” She said, trying to drop a conversation ender.
“Don’t think you can try that with me Mimi, I know it isn’t for another two weeks.” Damn! How could she know? Oh wait… Mimi thought as she realized that she knew exactly when Cat was due as well. Idiot! That kind of thing was totally best friend knowledge.
“I figured your migraine had come back…” Cat continued. Yep, that would have been the smart thing to say, Mimi realised all too late.
“But now I know there’s something wrong.”
“Cat. You’re my best friend but I want you to leave me alone right now, I’m fine.”
“You don’t sound fine… you don’t sound like you at all. Now you’ve got me worried.” Cat genuinely did sound concerned, which was only annoying Mimi more.
“Mimi, what are you doing in there? You can talk to me.”
“I’m not doing anything!” she snapped, wishing her friend would believe her lies.
“Really? Then I guess you wont mind me joining you then.”
Before Mimi could even figure out what Cat meant, her best friend climbed up onto the toilet seat and peered over the low cubicle wall. Turning to face the direction of the odd climbing sound, Mimi saw Cat’s head peeking over the divide. She immediately shot up from where she had been frozen, clutching her diaper from the front and back and holding it against herself.
As though she expected a useful response, Cat repeated “Um, are you o.k?” Mimi didn’t reply.
An intense silence hung in the cubicle while Cat took in the scene.
“Are you done?” Mimi reprimanded through rapidly forming tears. Immediately Cat’s head dropped back behind the wall, followed by the sound of her feet landing on the floor. Shortly afterward Cat heard the sound of Mimi’s soggy diaper also hitting the bathroom tiles, along with quiet sobbing.
“I’m sorry babe.” Cat managed, instantly regretting her choice of affectionate name.
Both girls remained in Silence for a long time, each wanting to speak but not be the first. Mimi of course wanted a chance to explain before things got out of hand. Cat was obviously curious but more than that she felt sorry for Mimi and wanted to comfort her in someway. She didn’t know quite how she would do it but still she broke the silence.
“Mimi-“
“Sometimes I pee…” Mimi immediately interjected. Even though there was a wall between them she still stared straight into the ground. She had already run through all the possible lies she could think of, and decided that her best friend wouldn’t believe any of them. Heck, she probably wouldn’t believe the whole truth if she tried to explain it.
“That’s cool.” was all that Cat could think of to say. “You should probably finish what you were doing…” she added, aware that Mimi had only stopped on account of her
A few seconds later Cat heard movement from within Mimi’s cubicle. Most of the sounds were obvious, and while it was going on she decided to step outside of the stall.
There was a short lull in activity coming from Mimi’s direction.
“Can I come in?” Cat asked.
After an awkward silence, the bolt keeping the door locked slid open. Cat stepped inside.
Mimi stood with her head at a ninety degree angle, her glasses in danger of falling off as she buried her gaze into the ground. Her skirt was hanging from the hook behind the door and her wet diaper still sat where it had fallen on the floor.
“You look cute.” Cat said, trying to be as helpful as possible. She realised that it probably wasn’t.
“Thanks.” Mimi replied sarcastically, still not wanting to look up. At least the atmosphere was breaking, with both girls feeling at least a little more comfortable.
“It sure explains a lot.” It sure did.
“It must seem really obvious now, huh?” Mimi looked up for the first time.
“Yeah, why you hardly ever hang out with us after school and never come to the sleepovers.” Lies flooded into Mimi’s conscience, of all the excuses she’d used over the years. Now she wanted to bring them all back up, to convince Cat that she was wrong, that her accidents were only happening lately because of stress…
She knew deep down that it would never work. The evidence was too heavily weighted against her. In light of all her past deception, Mimi expected her best friend to be hurt, or at least furious.
“I guess a stinky diaper would sure ruin the party.” Cat said, unhurt and un-furiously.
“I do not-“ Mimi began, but she didn’t even have to finish the lie, Cat did it for her.
“Sorry hun, I was just trying to make a joke. You know what Im like… sorry.”
“It’s o.k.”
“And before you say anything, of course I’m going to keep it a secret. That is, unless everyone knows except your best friend?” Mimi shook her head and smiled.
She couldn’t contain herself any longer and threw herself at Cat for the first proper hug she’d ever had from a friend. Cat was quite a bit taller, allowing Mimi to bury herself in her chest. All the time they’d known each other, Mimi had consistently shied away from contact, not wanting to risk her secret being discovered for the sake of affection. Affection that she so wanted.
Now that she was standing in a diaper, all her hard work was undone and holding back seemed pointless. Cat’s embrace slipped over Mimi’s diaper. It was acceptance. Mimi pressed herself against her best friend so hard that she thought she might burst. She was ecstatic to feel Cat squeezing back.
“I promise not to tell on one condition.” She said after a long and intense hug. “Even though you know your friends would not have cared, I’m not going to lecture you on why you didn’t tell us. I don’t know if I would have done either, and I think you’ve spent a long time hurting inside with so big a secret.” She didn’t know the half of it, Mimi thought, and even after all that had just happened, she would go back to keeping it all a secret from her in a heart beat.
“So I promise not to tell anyone, but only if you come to our next sleep over.”
The End of Mimis Struggle – Chapter Eleven.
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